i needed time to reconnect and ask Master questions about the weekend before explaining how i feel here.
i needed to make sure that He and i are still about He and i and nothing else. It's just Him i need nothing else. Others may be around to help, but it's not them that i need. The only person i am concerned with pleasing is Him.
So, again, the weekend was good. The play was good. i needed it and look forward to more. i think that the blindfold helped some. i do need to concentrate better. But this being the first time with this person i think all went well.
Details.....well...., not sure if it's to be shared or not. i need to think about it. A few things i feel okay about sharing are that i was spanked with his and whipped with his belt. Loved the belt. Loved the feel of the sting. Sting was completely different from the hand. i really liked it. Towards the end though, i did have to use a safe word that he had given me. i truly felt bad about using it. Why? i don't want Master to be disappointed with me. i want Him to be proud. He did say He was pleased and that my endurance will get better with time.
i do have more to say about the event, but i do think i need another night to think about it. Think about what i want and/or need to say, or rather would like to.
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